Questionable or Scary Thoughts

Do you ever have questionable or scary thoughts? Thoughts that make you wonder if you are even the same person you were before you had that thought. Well, I'm here to tell you, I have the same! 

Sometimes I could just be doing any random thing or looking at someone and a questionable thought comes to my mind. For example, If I'm using a knife to cut some fruit I sometimes think, "Imagine I just stabbed myself right now." And after thinking that thought I wonder why it even popped up because I'm not a violent person. I could also be driving and think in my mind "Imagine I just swerve off the road and hit this person" or in class I think "Imagine I strip naked in front of everyone right now." 

If you have any of these thoughts just know that you are not alone. And what I learned from my therapist is that they are NOT your thoughts. My therapist explained it to me like this...There is something called your filter thoughts and your actual thoughts. Filter thoughts are thoughts that need to go through your mind filter to become more clean and positive. But when they don't go through that filter they end up becoming negative. So when you get a thought that is scary or questionable remember that it's not actually your thought. Label that thought as a filter thought. Look at it as the thought and not as you so you don't judge yourself. 

I hope this helps some of you who have these kinds of thoughts. I know it is a real struggle to battle with your own mind but just know that you are in control. Comment down below "Me too!" if you have these types of thoughts.