Edouard Writes - Christian Mental Health

  Keeping up with life is hard especially when you are not in the spot you want to be. Mainly because when you are not it feels like you need to try your hardest to get there. Sometimes I tend to get stuck in these thoughts where I tell myself that I could be better than how I am right now and I go down a rabbit hole of more thoughts that enhance the boring or unsatisfying parts of my life.  I feel that in order to not go down that rabbit hole I have to be in the mode of recovery. And by that, I mean getting into the starting line of becoming my best self, such as recovering from depression, anxiety, envy, and anger. Literally, anything you name it. And by recovering I don't mean I am in those stages right now I mean that I am recovering from the thoughts that those stages left me with. And I will be in a mode where I'll be working towards getting better.  I have been through a lot since the start of my diagnosis but that diagnosis doesn't define me or who I will become i...

Sometimes memories from the past can be really hard to handle. They pop up in your head sometimes so suddenly out of nowhere. And that is what I dislike the most about them. I have a lot of memories from the past that can keep me up at night but I try my best to stay focused on what is good in life or the memories that brought me joy... It isn't good to think about the past a lot. You should keep your mind in the present or the future but sometimes we are led to the past by the jogging of our memories through random reminders. It is really hard to stay focused on your present and the future though. Especially if you have had a traumatic past that lingers in the back of your mind at any time of the day. Just know it won't be like this forever.  I realize that when I make changes to my routine like adding things that will allow me to look forward to the future or the present future, I think more about the present and the future because that is where my mind is. My mind is usually...