Edouard Writes - Christian Mental Health

Have you ever had that one person that isn't in your life anymore? They left long ago but you had many memories with that person. They even supported you and made you feel normal which made them even more valuable to you.  Well, same. I had the same person who left a year ago. And here is how that went... I have realized that letting go is a good thing. Sometimes there is a person in your life that keeps you from growing which causes you to stay the same person for years and stay in the same rut or mindset you have always been in. Which in my perspective isn't good. You need new. You need better. You need a better sense of life.  After losing this one person I told myself "This is a time to do something different." I felt like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders. I was ready to take on the world and try something new. And be new. Being in that situation made me feel like I was in a time capsule. I was going to be opened up after a couple years of being secluded....

Do you ever have questionable or scary thoughts? Thoughts that make you wonder if you are even the same person you were before you had that thought. Well, I'm here to tell you, I have the same!  Sometimes I could just be doing any random thing or looking at someone and a questionable thought comes to my mind. For example, If I'm using a knife to cut some fruit I sometimes think, "Imagine I just stabbed myself right now." And after thinking that thought I wonder why it even popped up because I'm not a violent person. I could also be driving and think in my mind "Imagine I just swerve off the road and hit this person" or in class I think "Imagine I strip naked in front of everyone right now."  If you have any of these thoughts just know that you are not alone. And what I learned from my therapist is that they are NOT your thoughts. My therapist explained it to me like this...There is something called your filter thoughts and your actual thoughts....