Is something in the past bothering you? {TW}

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Sometimes memories from the past can be really hard to handle. They pop up in your head sometimes so suddenly out of nowhere. And that is what I dislike the most about them. I have a lot of memories from the past that can keep me up at night but I try my best to stay focused on what is good in life or the memories that brought me joy...

It isn't good to think about the past a lot. You should keep your mind in the present or the future but sometimes we are led to the past by the jogging of our memories through random reminders. It is really hard to stay focused on your present and the future though. Especially if you have had a traumatic past that lingers in the back of your mind at any time of the day. Just know it won't be like this forever. 

I realize that when I make changes to my routine like adding things that will allow me to look forward to the future or the present future, I think more about the present and the future because that is where my mind is. My mind is usually stuck in the past because I stay in the same rut, confusion, boring routine, and old lifestyle as the past. To be new you need to become new.

You should add something new to your day that excites you. Or even if it doesn't at the moment add something that use to excite you and watch yourself fall back in love with it. The past is meant to teach you not to hurt you. Look at the past with eyes of curiosity to see what you can learn from it, don't look at the past with eyes filled with tears because what hurt you in the past will teach you and help you grow even stronger to face the future with a better perspective. 

Sometimes when something in the past is bothering us we can't see our future. And by that I mean we feel like we have no future. A couple of years ago when I was really battling with my thoughts I would go day by day living with painful thoughts and when I thought about my future I just saw black, literally nothing. I thought maybe it is cuz I have no future or maybe I will be dead before I see my future. But as time passed and my Mental Health got better I finally saw a future for myself. 

To see a future for me what I did was make goals and think about things that were long-term. Before this I would only have my mind on the pain I was feeling in the present or the pain I felt in the past. Which made me not even once think about my future. But when I did there was nothing. No successes, no friends, no relationship, no occupation. Nothing. I am not sure if others are like this too but if you are just know it gets better with time. Try your hardest to ponder on how you can make your present and future better. Leave the past in the past. You can't change it. And what happened in the past isn't your fault. It never will be. Keep your head up high and walk into the present future or the future with a smile on your face ready to take on new experiences. 










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