I'm scared but excited? Navigating Fear and Excitement on the Path to Growth

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I graduate from high school next month and I feel like I am not ready. I can't believe I have come so far. A couple of months ago I was afraid that I wouldn't be able to graduate mainly because of how I ended up in the hospital each time in the middle of the school year and my grades plummeted. But this is a huge step. 

After high school, I plan to go to college. I used to be very confident that I wanted to be a Social Worker but something changed. I did have a plan to work with homeless communities and try to make them less dehumanized. But in order to become a real social worker and have a better impact, I need to get a master's degree. I kind of had this weird belief that no one will respect me in the workplace if I don't have a master's degree but that has changed. I'm going to a college with barely any master's degree programs that I would enjoy and I'm not sure if, after my bachelor's I would want to transfer to a different college for a master's, I just want to get in and then out with a job that suits me and pays well. 

College is getting closer and closer as each month passes by and to be honest, I am afraid of what's to come because everything sounds so new to me. I have heard many people say that college is not like high school. That scares me because I kind of liked high school, so is it better or more stressful and overwhelming?

If you are already in college comment down below, i want to know how college life is going for you :)

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