Am I a loner or a weirdo?
I feel so odd. It's hard to make friends because I see through people. In the sense that I can see their deeper inner most intentions. And once I get the sign that they don't want me in their vicinity I dip because I don't want to be anywhere where I am not welcome. It bothers me though. I feel more lonely because of this. I am so tired of being lonely and so tired of being tired. I do the same thing every day. Wake up just to sleep again and then wake up again and question my life and existence. I keep forgetting what I am here for. In the beginning I felt like I was made to help others but how can I help others when I feel helpless. I feel like going to the psych ward only helped restore my clarity but I don't want my head to be clear because that means I'll have time to think about my life which I don't want to do. What is life? I ask myself so consistently. I'm not as busy as I use to be anymore but that's a good thing right? No. It's not. ...