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Read this if your a man [TW]

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  Men aren't heard when they are suffering with their mentality. Instead of being heard, they are told to "man up" or that "men don't cry." Here are my thoughts on that.  I have a couple of guy friends and some who silently suffer from a mental illness. One of them recently went to the hospital because of an attempt. He seemed perfectly fine the last time we talked which shows that depression is a silent killer. But I feel like with men it's more silent. They hide their sadness so well. Men are shut out when it comes to them talking about their needs. Some are told that no one cares because there men. Often fathers are the ones that tell their sons that men don't cry. Probably because emotion wasn't a factor when they were growing up.  I don't know the gender of who views my blog but if you are a male and you're silently suffering please speak up. It's easier said than done but there are people out there who love you and want to see y...

Having goals can be a big help {TW}

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  Before I made goals for myself I felt like life was useless. I didn't have a reason for anything or anything to be driven about. Here's why I think you will benefit from having goals.  I hate living the same day over again and having nothing to do every day. The thing about having goals is that you have something in your life to really work towards. And once you achieve it you will feel a sense of accomplishment. That feeling is a really good feeling. It's like when you have something to get done that you think is difficult but once you get it done a weight is lifted off your shoulders and you feel like doing more. You feel like you can do anything.  When you feel like you can't go on anymore your goals might be the last thing on your mind but they also might be the first. Your goals will keep you going. You will be so focused on your goals that negativity won't have space in your life. Think about that. Wouldn't it be nice to live the life you have always wan...

Driving with a mental illness

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I have been diagnosed with Depression and Generalized Anxiety Disorder. These illnesses cause me to have a lack of concentration. And you need concentration to drive so here's what I have to say about that.  When I was 15 I was so eager to start driving because I wanted to be independent. And as it got closer to my 16th birthday I was studying the driver's manual constantly. When I turned 16 I got my permit also at the exact time as my other two older siblings. I was so excited to start driving but after a while, I lost motivation.  After a couple of times of driving, I got better. At first, my thoughts weren't racing but then it got harder to focus. I would have a song stuck in my head from the night before and I would think about it constantly. Also while driving I would think about how everyone's life is in my hands at that moment and I could just make a wrong turn and cause a huge accident which as you know would end a couple of lives. I literally have to repeat the...

First Encounter [TW]

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  I have anxiety and depression. When I was diagnosed with depression it was a very unpleasant day for me. I wasn't mentally stable and wasn't in touch with reality. This is my story.  It all started when I had a quarrel with one of my friends at school. I made a rude remark to her about her life and she clapped back. What she said hurt me very much. I thought about it the entire day and night up until the next day. I was in class and just started bursted out crying because I couldn't take it anymore. My best friend at that time took me to the main office and I told them what happened but they didn't understand clearly from all of my sobbing. They finally understood and they called in the friend that said it to me. She said to me that what she said was never meant for me it was for the girl next to me. I barely believed her at that time but what she said kind of calmed me down. But I was never ready for what came next.  The next couple of days became hard. I felt parano...