Edouard Writes - Christian Mental Health

When the rain falls then comes the sun When you feel sad, you want to run  You can hide until it's all better  Then wait for the good weather  Let me tell you this quick tip  It's fine if you feel like you want to skip  Skip out on dinner or friends  Just please make sure it's not the end It's okay to not be okay  It's okay to not go out that day  But please make a little effort  To get out of the desert  The blazing heat on your back makes tears feel like comfort  But the joy that lies ahead will be unbearable  So keep fighting because there's no such thing as a heart that isn't repairable 

I graduate from high school next month and I feel like I am not ready. I can't believe I have come so far. A couple of months ago I was afraid that I wouldn't be able to graduate mainly because of how I ended up in the hospital each time in the middle of the school year and my grades plummeted. But this is a huge step.  After high school, I plan to go to college. I used to be very confident that I wanted to be a Social Worker but something changed. I did have a plan to work with homeless communities and try to make them less dehumanized. But in order to become a real social worker and have a better impact, I need to get a master's degree. I kind of had this weird belief that no one will respect me in the workplace if I don't have a master's degree but that has changed. I'm going to a college with barely any master's degree programs that I would enjoy and I'm not sure if, after my bachelor's I would want to transfer to a different college for a master...

Do you ever have questionable or scary thoughts? Thoughts that make you wonder if you are even the same person you were before you had that thought. Well, I'm here to tell you, I have the same!  Sometimes I could just be doing any random thing or looking at someone and a questionable thought comes to my mind. For example, If I'm using a knife to cut some fruit I sometimes think, "Imagine I just stabbed myself right now." And after thinking that thought I wonder why it even popped up because I'm not a violent person. I could also be driving and think in my mind "Imagine I just swerve off the road and hit this person" or in class I think "Imagine I strip naked in front of everyone right now."  If you have any of these thoughts just know that you are not alone. And what I learned from my therapist is that they are NOT your thoughts. My therapist explained it to me like this...There is something called your filter thoughts and your actual thoughts....

       Hey dudes and dudettes! I don't really know who I'm greeting because barely anyone reads my blogs so yeah. But anyways life is pretty good right now. I'm a senior in high school and I graduate in a couple of months which is so exciting! I'm also working towards getting my driver's license and I can't wait for that. I haven't posted in months but I've realized something. No matter how much your life sucks right now it will get better in the future and you should live every day expecting the unexpected of the day to come. Speaking from experience, when you feel negative about tomorrow not knowing what it will bring you already put yourself down into a hole full of negativity and anxiety. So lovelies, keep your heads up high and walk into each day with an open mind. I can't say all this so positively though as if it's an easy thing to do because it really isn't. You can try to walk into each day with an open mind but that open mind will s...

This is an update on how my life is doing right now. Not gonna lie it's not too bad but it would be nice if some things were different. I started school this week. I really enjoyed my first two days they were pretty chill. But the morning of the second day wasn't the best. I had an argument with my mom about the mental hospital and after the argument, she said that I cause a lot of problems.  When someone tells me something negative about myself I tend to repeat it to myself and start to believe it. So when she called me a problem that didn't really go well for me. After the conversation, I felt like the entire day was going to suck. But to my surprise, it didn't. Things turned around.  But I still have an issue happening up in my mind. I pray every day for it to go away but it just doesn't. The issue is that I'm afraid I'm going to end up in the hospital again but not because my mental health is bad right now. It's mainly because that's what happens...

  I've always heard that exercising can help with my mental health but I never realized it until now. I have been exercising for three and a half months now but I recently took a 3 week's break. I'm pretty sure in a previous post I talked about how I barely cried in a long time and that it might have been because of exercising. But something changed during my 3-week break.  I felt depressed for no reason at all. I would feel the need to cry when I didn't even know what I was crying about. My brain was even trying to find things in my life to cry about but it just wasn't giving what it was supposed to give. At first, when this happened I had no idea what was going on. But then I realized it was because I needed to continue exercising.  Exercising is actually a great coping skill. Mainly because you're actually getting benefits from it not that other coping skills aren't beneficial. But think about it, if you were to distract yourself with YouTube or TikTok th...

 There's something about helping people that I enjoy. It gives me a feeling of achievement. Whenever I feel someone needs help I just need to quickly step in. This is where my future dream job comes in place. I want to be a social worker. But I not only want to help people face to face I want to help a whole community. I feel like the social work occupation is calling out my name and screaming at me to pursue it. But the thing is there are a lot of things you can do as a social worker and I don't know what type of social worker I want to be yet. I'll figure it out though. Anyways when it comes to the future I feel like our minds need to stay focused a little bit on it. If we were to think about the past all our lives we'll never get prepared for our future because we're too busy loathing our past.  The present and the future are important. There's this thing I say to myself whenever I'm bored and have nothing to do. I ask myself "What can I do at this m...